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May. 7th, 2016 11:29 pm
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I've been going through the usual depressive cycles lately, which is somewhat puzzling considering things should actually be going very well for me. I get to take a pretty rockin' trip to see some pretty rockin' people in a couple of months. I have a job I love, which could dovetail into a job I will love for a very long time. All in all, even considering that my living situation is bad and will continue to be for about another quarter, I should be relatively happy.

So why aren't I?

Well because I continue to run away from myself in stupid ways for stupid reasons. On the bright side, I think I might be in a place where I can acknowledge that improving myself isn't so much about cutting things out of my life (i.e. video games), but rather it's about learning to (somehow) budget my time better. Spending hours upon HOURS playing a strategy game that is more stressful than fun is maladaptive. Taking time now again to play something I haven't played or practice my speedrun is fine. What I need to do instead of wasting my time on games I don't enjoy anymore is REEEEAAAAAAAAAD. Also think about writing. I have a world to build after all, and maybe some short fiction to write if anything pops up.

So what I'm going to do from now is journal about what I've been reading/watching/playing. I need to remind myself at every opportunity what I'm doing to move forward, and the self-imposed obligation to write such reminders down is onus enough to actually move forward. So there it is.

Right now I'm re-reading Hyperion by Dan Simmons. And watching Lost on Netflix. The latter for reasons, I'm sure. At least it doesn't make me want to claw my damn eyes out, like a certian video game that shall remain nameless.

Now it's time to get back to the Poet's tale.
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Just heard someone call someone else a "cock basket", and I quite literally cannot stop laughing. This is twitter right?

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Feb. 17th, 2016 12:12 am
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Put on struggle-face
STRUGGLE! *pant* *pant* *gulp* *pant* *PANT*
repeat as needed
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Plans he had wrangled
Just were not all that tangled
Were no-ot all that tangled
Fa la la la webs

Another I think that works better spoken. Because text doesn't convey the specific flavor of the beat at "webs". Also I'm dissatisfied with my filler syllable for the second line right now. Okay so it's like a song then. Because somebody, and I'm not sayin' it's me, truly respects the form.

Anyway, I'm seriously considering taking another stab at the post office, job wise. It seems like a slam dunk if I could make it work.

I've finally gotten around to watching Sens8, which I'm enjoying for the most part. It's hard to express in words how much I love Lito.

"Okay there's a Korean lady. And she's not crying the way I'M NOT SCREAMING."
-Lito <3 4evah

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Nov. 13th, 2015 01:19 pm
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When life is more than
A slapfight with depression
While others look on

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Oct. 19th, 2015 05:41 pm
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He is in the way
He looks like me. In the way.
Move. Or I'll move you.
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"Storks bring babies. Not sandwiches."
-xD

Y'know at some point I should really start blogging again.
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"I don't know what her problem is. She takes her voice off to do a shirt-over."
-Moi
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While I stared at the screen with what had to be a pretty dumb look on my face, I scrubbed drool off my cheek with one hand and tweezed the sleep out of my eyes with the other. The words just sat there:

what am i

I looked around the lab. No one was there that late at night, of course. I typed in the only thing that came to mind and hit the enter key:

You are a computer.

The cursor blinked at me for a moment or two before the response came:

okie doke
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Perhaps in accordance with the laws of Yeah-Saw-that-Coming, I have started live streaming on twitch. If nothing else, it's something to do while I practice SotC, which I am still in the process of learning as a speed run. For the moment, streaming seems to entail a lot of me talking to myself. To be expected when the content on your channel mostly consists of doing time attacks on various bosses over and over and over.

And over and over and over and over. Turns out, it's actually more fun than I thought it would be. Practicing on time attack affords me the immediate goal of trying to beat my own time while I'm learning the various strats that go into the speed run. So yay. As twere.

In other news, school has started. Two weeks in actually. For most of that time I've been battling whatever winter sickness hit me during the first week. On Friday, I actually woke up with one of the muscles that was pulled as a result of all the coughing screaming in pain (metaphorically speaking. if my muscle had literally been screaming, this would be a very different sort of entry). The scary thing was that it's a muscle directly below my heart. Basically at the bottom of my left boob/pectoral whatever you wanna call it. I also had pain in my left elbow. So it was doctor time baby! I went ahead and had them do an ekg just to be sure and everything's fine. So I've been chugging ibuprofen and that seems to have alleviated the problem.

These modern medicine thangs is turnin' out to be right muracles. Boy howdy.
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I have a sore throat. I'd weep but it would only hurt more.
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Procrastination, damaging though it may be, has its emergent wonders. Like symphonies, cabinets, and voyeurs, I like a strong finish.
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I'm a romantic gestalt with one foot in the clouds and the other in the clouds, a world builder with tales to be told.
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If you ever need a Samwise, a Fezzik, or a Chewbacca, I'm basically your guy. It wasn't even a conscious choice. It's just who I am.
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I love raw oysters. When I was a little kid, I'd eat those delicious little loogies like they were popcorn.
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I'm a half-yankee sooner who grew up in Texas and votes democrat.
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I'm not outdoorsy, but I like camping. I'm not a sports fan. but I play fantasy football. Not an environmentalist, but I'll walk farther to recycle an empty coke bottle.
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I very much enjoy walking in the rain. Unless it's cold, in which case: fuck rain. I also curse alot.
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I'm a fervent transhumanist, an unrepentant wallflower, a lapsed trumpet player, and an apologetic drunk.
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I identify totemically with raccoons, bears, and butterflies. Raccoons in particular tend to wander by at important moments in my life.
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